This is something I’ve dreaded since our daughter was a few months old and we discussed that she is absolutely our last baby. After a year of discussion, I’ve finally decided it’s time to sort out all the baby stuff / clothes, nursery furniture and accessories and find it all new homes. It’s not a task I’m excited about. I’m so torn between knowing it’s time, that they’re just unnecessarily taking up space, but not being completely ready to let it all go.
I can barely look at each item one by one, I’ve sorted the clothes out by size, just looking at the tag and throwing them into large black garbage bags, which will be labeled and dropped off at a local charity. My partner had suggested we sell the items in bulk lots, which does makes sense, but if I have to lay all my memories of my babies when they were much smaller out and take photos, then sell them on to some stranger, I might snap and pack them all into the boxes I’ve been hoarding in the cupboard and never ever part with them.
The problem is don’t see a newborn sized tutu, I see my few day old daughter sleeping in my lap, I don’t see a size 00 Winnie the pooh Onesie, I see my 4 week old baby boy wiggling on the floor discovering his hands, the size 2 fleecy pyjamas aren’t just pyjamas they’re “rocket jammies”, they’re wash-and-dry-before-bed-or-else-there’ll-be-a-melt-down-jammies. It’s all the firsts, first time being dressed, first time out of hospital, first outing, first Christmas, first crawl, first steps, first favourite outfit. All those firsts, that as soon as those physical embodiment of those memories leave my house, are over. I can still pick up my first babies first 0000 pyjamas and cuddle them (when nobody is watching) I can pretend he can still sleep comfortably held on one arm, that he’s not starting school next year.
I can – and will – keep some items, I don’t have to part with all of it, but I can’t keep all of it, there’s two whole packing cartons full of clothes.
It just makes it too concrete , in a way replacing bigger items seems a lot easier to me – actually I am planning to sell my big double pram and replace it with something much more compact. But even if we were to have another baby at some stage I don’t mind replacing those bigger items, like cots and prams – in fact, I love replacing prams – it’s the years worth of clothes, all those individual items, that would all need to be replaced, should be decide to have another baby. Not that I actually even want more children, I feel that we’re complete, there might always be a little “what if” but it doesn’t fit into our plans. Just part of me doesn’t feel quite ready to leave baby land behind forever.
What are you planning to keep from your children’s babyhood?