2013 is coming to an end, and I have been reflecting what the year has been like, and what I have learned.
This year I have had a lot of challenges as a parent. Learn to have an abundance of patience, and contain my anger. I am a terribly grumpy woman most days. I lose it sometimes at the drop of a hat. And about 90% of the time, I feel like a horrible mother. But when I see the cheeky smiles on my boys, it make me realise, I am not doing a terrible job of it.
This year my eldest son who turned 4 this year, and started talking, he gave me the best mother’s day gift and called me Mummy for the first time, and he has exploded into conversation since. He has started singing and being his own independent person. In September of this year, he was formally diagnosed with High Functioning Autism.
My youngest son is a wonderfully cheery, funny little man. On days I feel my lowest he is the one that picks me up the most, he has such a beautiful type of sense of humor, just about everything is hilarious.
My relationship with my husband has had a lot of pressure on it this year, balancing the money and the medical appointments all year, a long with the stresses of looking of 2 little kids with ideas of their own. But we have pulled through it all, and I feel we are stronger then ever now.
As for me, well, I have learned to be less hard on myself to a degree, I put waaaay to much stress on myself to do things, and then feel like an utter failure if it doesn’t pan out. And most importantly to do things because I want to, not because others feel that I should. One day at a time.
With 2014 coming, I have lots happening, my eldest starts Kinder, and my youngest starts early intervention.
The husband and I will have been a couple for 10yrs, and I am turning 30. I feel that next year will also be a year of big changes. We will see what happens.
Do I have any goals? I think it will be a year of improvement, and maybe time to think about myself for a change. Enjoy myself more.